Recently, I was rereading my first draft of my book, Tears to Joy, and I realized that there were several chapters that were omitted in the final draft. I decided to share them on my website. It's a little weird to post this first one about the early days with Michael, since I am now in the first few months of marriage to Jeff. I will say that I feel so incredibly blessed that God granted me an amazingly supportive husband, who not only understands my past, but encourages me to use my hurts to help others. So, it is with Jeff's blessing that I post these next few posts which I will call "The Lost Chapters." Jeff, I want to publicly say that you are truly a blessing and I thank God for you. Love you with all my heart!
Oh my Lord, beside still waters is where I sit right now. The seasons are still changing and the leaves are falling. Lord where will this current take me? Where are you leading us, O God, and why do questions flood my soul? I know that we desire to serve you. Will you take us and form from our little lumps of clay something beautiful or are we still so stubborn as to not even be moldable by your mighty hand...no…never! God, I long for an answer to your call on my life. Where Lord? When? O Savior, I want my hands to work for You. I pray for direction. I want to be a leader and serve you, O Lord my God. Will you take this life I live and make it your own, O Lord? Helen is a beautiful little city here in these mountains. God I pray for the resort ministry here in Helen. Lord I want Natalie and me to feel at home here as we seek to do your work here, if this is where you want us. Where is our peace? Have we misplaced it looking for some other way? Lord, discernment and direction is my prayer.